Vvn | nullification

So here it is. My magnum opus. The culmination of years of exploration, planning, love. This work of art is a celebration, but also a transgressive piece with statement—an act of rebellion, affirmation; an exercise in consent. I hereby present it to those who wish to consume it.

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This artwork contains 'NSFL' material, not suitable for minors, and probably most adults. Described and pictured are, or may be interpreted as, media including: nudity, medical gore, pornography, religious imagery, disturbing sex acts, and destruction and consumption of human tissue.
All acts and depictions in the project were executed and are presented with full consent of all parties involved.

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Vivivivisection: nullification

I had my 'nulloplasty'—sexual nullification surgery—on 2024-05-30. I had a special 'nerve-preserving' variant, where some nerves and tissue were kept and rearranged inside of me to retain some sexual stimulation ability. Surgery went well.

4, 7 days post-op:

3 months post-op:

After two weeks, I was allowed to reclaim my gonads. I was advised against it several times, but I was persistent.

...I did an unboxing video. Initial audio was lost due to technical issues, but I dubbed over it.

I did some fun photoshoots with them~
Note that I am quite irreligious; the pentagrams are mostly for comedic shock value.

I then had the most unusual sex of my life, including the landmark piece "Deconstruction + Reconstruction": I took the largest piece of my severed penis, put it in a condom, and fingered a trans woman's neovagina.

Of course, I had to penetrate myself as well.

Alas, all good things must come to an end. The night culminated in: ~~rocky mountain~~ midwest oysters, with garlicky broccolini and couscous with an apple berry sauce, served with brandy.

Indeed, I cooked and ate—and shared—my removed genitals.

I did food prep naked... it just felt appropriate.

From there, the dinner party got into more lewdness until I had to leave to catch my flight home. A wonderful send-off, if I do say so myself.

The experience meant much to me on many levels. Of course the surgical procedure itself is a huge step in my ever-evolving journey in self-exploration of identity and gender; a satisfying cumlination as an extreme accomplishment in body hacking and self-actualization.

As a longtime vegan, the rare opportunity for consenting flesh could not be missed. Similarly, to share my body with others in this way was a uniquely intimate experience.

Similarly, I share it again to a more public audience—with the taboo, the novelty, the transgression, the victory, I hope to inspire but also challenge others, shock but entertain. Many will be appalled, and some I think for the wrong reasons—the ethical integrity will be questioned, but I stand by it firmly.

The undertaking contained several of the most profound, life-changing experiences of my life, and collectively I consider the rare feat a satisfying success. I hope to continue to find ways to explore and evolve myself in the future. I couldn't hope to "top" this, but I should need not to, but rather complement it with other meaningful facets of the Vivivivisection project.

Thank you for allowing me to share myself with you.

—Vivian

Questions/comments/feedback?
nullification (at) vvn (dot) dev